copy/paste because im not sure how else to say things and im desperate ---
Hey, I'm not really sure if I'm accepted here but whatever. I hate myself and all I do is fuck up and I don't know what to do, everything I've tried just makes things worse I'm almost certain everyone is going to turn against me very soon and I guess it's sorta justified because I'm abusive and ruin everything that could be seen as good for me. Everything I've had going on that was good I've just ruined and I dunno. It's not fun? It's really not fun, I've spent the last 24 hours panicking over the idea that the people I care about will get sick and tired of me because I've nothing to offer and take literally everything, I am a leech. I dont know what to do but I know I'm not okay and I really need to fucking do something.